Monday, October 7, 2024

Unforgettable

Isaiah 49:15 says that a mother might forget her child, but God cannot forget us.  This is a great comfort to me, as I know how impossible it is for me to forget my children and grandchildren.


When my daughter Janelle was about 4 or 5, she was hanging out in our bedroom while my husband and I were getting ready for the day.  He and I were discussing various things, and at one point, I said, “I just realized that I have no major projects planned for the month of January.”  In addition to routine events on my calendar, I normally had something I planned to work on each month, and it would be written at the top of the calendar page.  As soon as I finished saying there was nothing major planned, a sweet little voice said in a sad tone, “January 6th?”  That was her birthday, and she apparently feared I was forgetting it.  In fact, it was written in red on my calendar.


Although I never forgot any of my children’s birthdays, a friend has shared with me, that the year he turned 13, no one in his family remembered.  No one said anything all day, but he was sure it would be remembered at suppertime.  He expected a cake and a present.  But, there was no recognition of the special day.  After supper, he went to his room and cried.  How hurtful it must have been to be forgotten by those closest to him.


This summer my youngest granddaughter (age 5) gave me a map and guided me on a treasure hunt.  She had placed a snack-sized plastic bag filled with sparkly items in a special spot for me to find.  After I found the treasure, she said, “I want you to put the map on the refrigerator, so you will never forget me.”


Oh…my heart!  How could I ever forget you, you precious little doll!


Amazing that the God of the universe remembers each of us individually.  He knows the number of the hairs on our heads (Luke 12:7). That is something I don’t know about the people I love!


I expect to spend a couple of days this week in a hurricane shelter.  God will know where I am.  He has a plan for my life.  He will not forget me.



Saturday, October 5, 2024

I Sang

Today in the shower, I was not singing.  I was talking to the Lord about how grieved I am at the loss of my voice.  Essential tremor first robbed me of my singing voice, and it is now working on my speaking voice.  I am actually looking forward to dying, because when I get to heaven, I am going to be able to sing again.


I listed off for the Lord (as though He didn’t already know) all the places I have sung.

 

Church services (no idea how many different locations)

Funerals (from a big church balcony, to a cappella at a grave site and places in between)

Weddings (not sure of number, but in at least 3 states)

Band stands

Dinner meetings

Street corners (almost got arrested)

Prisons

Nursing homes

Mental hospital

Chicago Public Television

World Flower & Garden Show at McCormick Place

Nursing school graduation

Walking home from college

Rocking my babies

Silly songs for kids and grandkids

Working around the house—cleaning bathrooms, vacuuming, folding laundry, painting

Driving in the car

Campfires

Christmas caroling every chance I could get

 

Besides solos, I sang in duets, trios, quartets, ensembles, little choirs and big choirs.


I sang a cappella, or accompanied by taped music, piano, organ, guitar or violin.


When I sang, I felt as though there was a direct connection between my heart and my voice.  My sincerest and deepest feelings could come flying out of my mouth.  I want to be able to praise God in that way again.  Now I stand in church during congregational singing trying my best to produce the sound I can hear in my mind.  Once in a rare while a couple of the old notes will come out.  Mostly I quaver and croak…and sometimes, I cry.