I think as people grow older they increasingly look back at the defining times in their lives. For my Dad, it was his years in the Army during World War II. For me, it is my years in nursing school...not the same kind of "war," but an agonizing struggle with life and death, nonetheless.
Recently I thought about an experience that occurred about this time of year in 1965. I was a student spending 3 months at Chicago State Hospital for my psychiatric nursing experience. I was assigned to a male ward which housed about 30 men, as I remember it. We didn't have much direction or supervision. We sort of made our own way trying to build relationships and be "therapeutic." We didn't have specific patient assignments, although we were expected to pick a patient and do a case study.
An elderly man was admitted to the ward. Over the course of 3 or 4 days, I noticed a deterioration in his condition. I had not spent any time talking with him, but I noticed that instead of being well-groomed and clean, he was unshaven and dirty. As I approached him, I realized he had even soiled himself. I sat down next to him and began to talk with him. He started to cry. Something told me this wasn't just depression. I asked enough questions to learn that he was diabetic and had NOT received any of his medications since entering the hospital. I immediately talked with the head nurse and had him transferred to the infirmary...the place where patients who were sick physically, as well as mentally, were taken.
When the whole story came out, we discovered that this man's family was tired of taking care of him. They apparently decided that a convenient way to get rid of him was to admit him to the psychiatric hospital and not tell anyone that he was diabetic. I suppose he was confused enough that they got away with the psychiatric admission. They were probably hoping he didn't have the mental clarity to tell anyone he was diabetic. He certainly did not have the initiative.
So, why is this a defining experience? I was 19 years old and had not previously seen enough of the evil side of the world to realize that some people are unloved and unwanted. I had not really thought about the responsibility that I bore in that environment. It was frightening to think what might have happened, if I had not been there enough days in a row to observe the change in him.
Someone recently commented to me that his son studied theology in college, but he doesn't have a job in that that field. He is concerned that those years of education are being "thrown away." I told him that his son's education is now part of his character and his world view, no matter what field he works in.
The experiences I had in nursing school are part of my character and world view. They are a large part of what defines me.
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Thursday, January 17, 2013
East Wind
A Meditation on Isaiah 27:8
“...with his fierce blast
he drives her out, as on a day the
east wind blows.”
Swirling, hot blasts,
Windswept desert sand,
Blinding the eyes,
Grating on the flesh,
Driving from the land.
Stinging winter chill,
Pounding all around,
Icy, frozen pellets
Chasing me to shelter,
Covering the ground.
Descending from the heavens,
Soaking to the bone,
Advancing sheets of rain,
Curtains of moisture,
Pushing me towards home.
Only for a season,
This uncommon flow of wind,
Punishing, yet directing,
Scourging, yet protecting,
Leading me to him.
The east wind does not forever blow.
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
Of All Men Most Miserable
If in this life only
we have hope in Christ, we are of all men most miserable. I Corinthians 15:19
This verse is puzzling to me if it is quoted outside of the
context of the chapter. When it stands
alone, I don’t agree with it.
If after death, all I had to look forward to was hell, then
I would definitely agree. But, if after
death, there was oblivion…nothingness, the end of existence, I would not be of
all men most miserable.
I do believe in and totally expect to end up in heaven when
I die, but if death was THE END, having Christ in this life would still have
been worth the commitment. I did not
accept Christ as my personal Savior to escape Hell. I accepted Him as my Savior to embark on a
life-long relationship. By God’s grace
that is what I have had. I look for
guidance through His Word and praying, not just aloud and formally, but within
my own mind and spirit on a more than daily basis….”Lord, what do you want me
to do next? Help me set my priorities
for day. What can I say to this person
to whom I’m talking? What should I do
about the situation which has just presented itself? Please help me not to do anything stupid that
is harmful to someone else.” I am able to cope with challenges, because I do not feel
alone. I feel the peace and strength
that comes from knowing that I live and move and have my being in His
love. (Acts 17:28)
Of course, if we look at I Corinthians 15:19 in the context
of the surrounding verses, Paul’s point is that if Christ has been raised from
the dead, He has conquered death, and that is why we have the hope of living
forever. He has conquered death for us
too. If we have hope only in this life,
it is because He was not raised and our whole faith comes in to question. It all hinges on His resurrection. He is alive! If it were not so, we would be miserable!
Relationship in this life and hope for the next life are
part of an integral package. I am
grateful for the reality of His presence now and overwhelmed by the prospect of
an eternity with Him.
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