Have you ever been near someone who was talking loudly about something that you had no business overhearing? There is a real increase in these types of incidents with the prevalence of cell phones. People walk along in very public settings having what ought to be very private conversations. Most of the time when you overhear these conversations, you don't know who is being talked about. But...what if you did?
Although my two stories do not involve cell phones, they are cautionary.
A few years ago, I was sitting in the waiting area of a doctor's office where my father had an appointment. The doctor's private office was close enough to the waiting room that he should have known enough to close his office door when having a private conversation. I could clearly hear him on the phone discussing what had occurred at his church board meeting the previous evening, and how he felt about it. It did not involve my church, but I could tell from the conversation exactly which church it did involve, and I was acquainted with people from that church. I kept what I had heard to myself....I had no business knowing it...but I could have created upheaval by sharing what I overheard.
Many years ago, my aunt was separated from her husband. She was harboring hopes of reconciliation and had no reason to think that was an impossibility. One day she was riding the bus back from work in downtown Buffalo. Two women in the seat next to her were gossiping about their boss, and the fact that he and his secretary had recently started living together. They had no idea that the woman sitting in the next seat was the estranged wife of the boss. She went home devastated, her hopes dashed. Perhaps, it was a good thing that she found out the truth, but what a painful way to learn it.
It is not uncommon for one of my daughters to be talking to me on a cell phone while in a store or other public setting. I have lost track of the number of times I have told her, "This conversation should not be occurring where other people can hear you."
Unless you know every person in ear-shot and want what you are discussing shared with them, you need to assume that someone may be present who shouldn't overhear your conversation.
Friday, July 27, 2012
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Self-Esteem
Although I have at times been appalled by the attempts of educators and those in the psycho-social community to build self-esteem in children at the expense of honesty and reality, I do see the need for self-esteem in order to be a functional human being.
I grew up with a father who was very difficult on my self-esteem. I knew that he loved me, but he told me on a regular basis that I was fat and stupid. If I expressed hurt, he claimed he was "just kidding" and added that I shouldn't be such a "sooky." I guess that meant I was whining and didn't have tough enough skin. On some level deep within myself, I knew that I was actually smarter than most, but he was my father, and he did tell me I was stupid. Maybe he was right?
I also grew up in a conservative Protestant church where taking pride in ones appearance was implied to be sinful, along with acknowledging ones superiority in any way. I did not wear make-up as a teenager. I tried not to be jealous of pretty clothes that other girls had. I also knew we didn't have the money for the variety of stylish apparel worn by some of my friends. But, I had friends who had less than I did, so I tried to be grateful for what I did have.
As I grew, my ability as a soloist was recognized. I was frequently asked to sing at church and my musical talent was also acknowledged at school. When I was complimented, I was afraid to accept the compliment least I appear full of pride.
I can't imagine what would have happened to me if I had never left home, or if I had attended a college near enough that I often went home on weekends. I might have forever felt inadequate and unable to move about comfortably in the world.
I don't know how I had the courage to go over 700 miles away to a strange city where I knew absolutely no one. I believed it was the right thing to do, so I did it. I didn't know how much I needed to change. My only awareness of such a need was that I was not going to be like my mother who never learned to drive and was totally dependent on my father to go anywhere.
I quickly discovered in nursing school...the old 3-year diploma type program...that it was sink or swim. If you are going to be a nurse and do the things nurses do, you have to display confidence. It isn't proud to do so, it is essential for the security of your patient that he/she not see fear and anxiety in the nurse. The knowledge that you know what to do and can do it is not a point of sinful pride, it is a comfort to the person for whom you are caring.
I also figured out that when I sang a solo and someone came up to compliment me, it was wrong to deflect the compliment. It caused the person to squirm and feel like they had to say something additional to assure you of their sincerity. The right thing to do was to thank them and tell them you were glad they enjoyed it.
I also decided that it was perfectly acceptable to try and look my best. I started to wear make-up and took advice on clothing from a stylish room-mate. Physical appearance is one of the ways a person represents not only herself, but her profession, her family, and even the God she claims to serve.
I suppose the toughest thing to deal with in this regard is the awareness of being intellectually superior without being arrogant. I have come to believe that it is wrong to allow a child who is exceptional to think that they are average or "stupid." If you are not allowed to think you are superior, when you are, it creates major confusion. You are left wondering what on earth is wrong with the rest of the world. You ask, "If I am normal and I understand this, why don't they?" It is far better to allow the gifted child to realize that he/she is unusual, but to understand that with the gift comes a responsibility for patience and compassion. I never came to grips with this until after I was married. I would express frustration to my husband about what seemed to me stupidity on the part of others, and he would patiently tell me that I was the one who was abnormal. Most people didn't see what I saw. This came as a shock to me. The idea that my ability to reason was better than most was something I had not been allowed to contemplate. It was "sinful." However, suppressing the thought that I was more intelligent actually caused me more problems than acknowledging it to myself. If I let myself think the seemingly sinful thought, I can also be more compassionate. I wish I had come to this understanding at an earlier age before facial expressions and tones of voice, which are hurtful to others, but to which I am oblivious, were ingrained.
So...in the end I have decided that it is perfectly OK to have self-esteem, but it isn't based on IQ, physical appearance, talents, money, social standing. It is good if we are aware of the gifts we have been given and feel a responsibility for using them wisely. But true self-esteem comes from this:
I am a unique individual created by a God who loves me and has a purpose for my existence. He cared enough about me to send His only Son to die to pay the penalty for my sins. He expects me to use the abilities He has given me.
Every single person in the world should remind him/herself of this daily.
I grew up with a father who was very difficult on my self-esteem. I knew that he loved me, but he told me on a regular basis that I was fat and stupid. If I expressed hurt, he claimed he was "just kidding" and added that I shouldn't be such a "sooky." I guess that meant I was whining and didn't have tough enough skin. On some level deep within myself, I knew that I was actually smarter than most, but he was my father, and he did tell me I was stupid. Maybe he was right?
I also grew up in a conservative Protestant church where taking pride in ones appearance was implied to be sinful, along with acknowledging ones superiority in any way. I did not wear make-up as a teenager. I tried not to be jealous of pretty clothes that other girls had. I also knew we didn't have the money for the variety of stylish apparel worn by some of my friends. But, I had friends who had less than I did, so I tried to be grateful for what I did have.
As I grew, my ability as a soloist was recognized. I was frequently asked to sing at church and my musical talent was also acknowledged at school. When I was complimented, I was afraid to accept the compliment least I appear full of pride.
I can't imagine what would have happened to me if I had never left home, or if I had attended a college near enough that I often went home on weekends. I might have forever felt inadequate and unable to move about comfortably in the world.
I don't know how I had the courage to go over 700 miles away to a strange city where I knew absolutely no one. I believed it was the right thing to do, so I did it. I didn't know how much I needed to change. My only awareness of such a need was that I was not going to be like my mother who never learned to drive and was totally dependent on my father to go anywhere.
I quickly discovered in nursing school...the old 3-year diploma type program...that it was sink or swim. If you are going to be a nurse and do the things nurses do, you have to display confidence. It isn't proud to do so, it is essential for the security of your patient that he/she not see fear and anxiety in the nurse. The knowledge that you know what to do and can do it is not a point of sinful pride, it is a comfort to the person for whom you are caring.
I also figured out that when I sang a solo and someone came up to compliment me, it was wrong to deflect the compliment. It caused the person to squirm and feel like they had to say something additional to assure you of their sincerity. The right thing to do was to thank them and tell them you were glad they enjoyed it.
I also decided that it was perfectly acceptable to try and look my best. I started to wear make-up and took advice on clothing from a stylish room-mate. Physical appearance is one of the ways a person represents not only herself, but her profession, her family, and even the God she claims to serve.
I suppose the toughest thing to deal with in this regard is the awareness of being intellectually superior without being arrogant. I have come to believe that it is wrong to allow a child who is exceptional to think that they are average or "stupid." If you are not allowed to think you are superior, when you are, it creates major confusion. You are left wondering what on earth is wrong with the rest of the world. You ask, "If I am normal and I understand this, why don't they?" It is far better to allow the gifted child to realize that he/she is unusual, but to understand that with the gift comes a responsibility for patience and compassion. I never came to grips with this until after I was married. I would express frustration to my husband about what seemed to me stupidity on the part of others, and he would patiently tell me that I was the one who was abnormal. Most people didn't see what I saw. This came as a shock to me. The idea that my ability to reason was better than most was something I had not been allowed to contemplate. It was "sinful." However, suppressing the thought that I was more intelligent actually caused me more problems than acknowledging it to myself. If I let myself think the seemingly sinful thought, I can also be more compassionate. I wish I had come to this understanding at an earlier age before facial expressions and tones of voice, which are hurtful to others, but to which I am oblivious, were ingrained.
So...in the end I have decided that it is perfectly OK to have self-esteem, but it isn't based on IQ, physical appearance, talents, money, social standing. It is good if we are aware of the gifts we have been given and feel a responsibility for using them wisely. But true self-esteem comes from this:
I am a unique individual created by a God who loves me and has a purpose for my existence. He cared enough about me to send His only Son to die to pay the penalty for my sins. He expects me to use the abilities He has given me.
Every single person in the world should remind him/herself of this daily.
Friday, July 20, 2012
What Do Women Want in a Kitchen?
Our beautiful Victorian home with 6 bedrooms and 4 full bathrooms has been for sale for almost 2 years. Real estate agents tell us that everyone who looks at the house thinks it is beautiful, but they think the price is too high when they take into consideration changes they would want to make. Ignoring the fact that if they were really interested, they could make an offer lower than the asking price, this brings me to the question, "what is it they want to change?" Number one answer: the kitchen.
The kitchen is actually very attractive and functional. I have served meals for 70-80 people from that kitchen. I have baked and decorated fairly elaborate cakes in that kitchen. It also has some unique features. The main chimney of the house goes up through the kitchen. When we moved in decades ago, we had the outside surface of the chimney sandblasted and coated with polyurethane. The oven, a microwave shelf and a shelf for cookbooks are built in between the chimney and the adjacent wall creating a very pretty and unusual feature.
About 2 years before the house went on the market, I thought of completely remodeling the kitchen. All of the research I did indicated that this was not wise. The experts said that you will never get your money out of a kitchen remodel. So, I sanded down and refinished cabinet doors that didn't look up to snuff. I had the kitchen painted and papered and had laminate flooring installed. I loved my "new" kitchen and joked that maybe I wouldn't move after all.
But.....I did not change the counter-top. I am now thinking that everyone expects granite or similar counter-top. What??? Why on earth? Given the amount of eating out that occurs, and the prevalence of convenience foods in the grocery store, and the shrinking of grocery store shelf space designated for basic ingredients, it sure looks to me like the modern woman doesn't actually use her kitchen much. It looks like a coffee maker, two burners, and a microwave would almost do it for lots of women. However, apparently all of the appliances need to sit on fancy gleaming counter-top.
I guess I will make a trip to Lowes and Home Depot and check out model kitchens to see what young women want their kitchen to look like. It must be that kitchens have gone the way of lots of other things in our world and appearance trumps function.
Oh, Wow....I'm older than I realized!
The kitchen is actually very attractive and functional. I have served meals for 70-80 people from that kitchen. I have baked and decorated fairly elaborate cakes in that kitchen. It also has some unique features. The main chimney of the house goes up through the kitchen. When we moved in decades ago, we had the outside surface of the chimney sandblasted and coated with polyurethane. The oven, a microwave shelf and a shelf for cookbooks are built in between the chimney and the adjacent wall creating a very pretty and unusual feature.
About 2 years before the house went on the market, I thought of completely remodeling the kitchen. All of the research I did indicated that this was not wise. The experts said that you will never get your money out of a kitchen remodel. So, I sanded down and refinished cabinet doors that didn't look up to snuff. I had the kitchen painted and papered and had laminate flooring installed. I loved my "new" kitchen and joked that maybe I wouldn't move after all.
But.....I did not change the counter-top. I am now thinking that everyone expects granite or similar counter-top. What??? Why on earth? Given the amount of eating out that occurs, and the prevalence of convenience foods in the grocery store, and the shrinking of grocery store shelf space designated for basic ingredients, it sure looks to me like the modern woman doesn't actually use her kitchen much. It looks like a coffee maker, two burners, and a microwave would almost do it for lots of women. However, apparently all of the appliances need to sit on fancy gleaming counter-top.
I guess I will make a trip to Lowes and Home Depot and check out model kitchens to see what young women want their kitchen to look like. It must be that kitchens have gone the way of lots of other things in our world and appearance trumps function.
Oh, Wow....I'm older than I realized!
Saturday, July 14, 2012
The Cost
A decision can be made so quickly…
With no thought to the cost.
Payment may be deferred…
Days
Weeks
Months
Years
But, when the bill comes due…
Who will pay it?
Will it be…
You
Your parent
Your child
Society?
And, when the bill comes due…
How will it be paid?
Will the currency be…
Time
Money
Tears
Pain?
We can’t always calculate….
The cost in advance.
But should we not be…
Frugal
Careful
Thoughtful
Prayerful?
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
A Toddler's View of Horticulture
From the time my children were born, I thought it was important to talk to them about anything and everything, so that they would learn about their world and expand their vocabularies.
When my son was growing up, we lived in a house which had a large dining room window with a bench running along under it on which I had numerous houseplants. One day when he was between 12 and 15 months old, my sweet little fellow toddled into the dining room as I was watering the plants. He seemed to be focused on my activity, so I said, "Do you know what I am doing? I am giving each of these plants a drink of water. You know how sometimes you get thirsty and need a drink. Well, plants get thirsty too, so I am giving them a drink."
He made no comment, and I didn't think about this brief conversation or have any reason to believe he had gleaned anything from it until the next day. As I walked through the dining room, I stopped in my tracks and burst out laughing. Each plant had a Ritz cracker tucked into its leaves.
If plants got thirsty like little boys, they must get hungry like little boys too.
I had been totally unaware of the box of crackers disappearing from the cupboard. He must have put them back when he finished "feeding" the plants. I was fascinated by the fact that a child so young understood what I had said and attempted to apply the concept. He obviously didn't get it quite right, but the very fact that he had attempted to adapt this new piece of knowledge, encouraged me to continue my chattering about anything and everything.
His curiosity and desire to adapt what he learned continued....he started college at the age of 13.
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Letting the Music Carry Me
I love music and have from my earliest memories. I still remember songs my mother sang to me when I was a toddler and songs I learned in kindergarten. When I awaken during the night, I often find that I am in the middle of a song that is playing like background music in my mind. I sang my first solo at church when I was 7 or 8. I still remember the words to "I'll Be a Sunbeam." I sang so many solos throughout my life that I couldn't possibly guess at the number, nor could I tell you my favorite song.
I lost my singing voice about 10 years ago. By that I mean that my voice has become so unreliable that I have no idea what will come out when I open my mouth in an attempt to sing. I might be able to sing a few lines almost as well as decades ago, but then the sound may deteriorate into a shaky old lady warble, or no sound at all.
I don't know how to explain the sense of loss this creates. There used to be a connection between what I knew in my mind and felt in my heart and my vocal chords, so that the expressions of my soul flew out of my mouth and filled up a room even without amplification. The connection is broken. While it is true that a bit over 10 years ago, an experience crushed something at my very core, it is also true that age and a degenerative condition inherited in my family are probably the major contributors to this loss. Whatever the cause, I now stand in church wishing I could lift my voice, but unable to do so.
When my daughters were teenagers, one Sunday we were traveling in another state and visited a church we had never been in before. We were a few minutes late and the service had already begun. The congregation was attempting to sing, but no strong voice led them. The singing was tentative and spiritless. I knew the song and began to sing before I picked up the hymn book. An immediate change occurred. I could feel the impact my voice was having on the group. People began to sing out confidently following my lead. After the service, one of my daughters asked me if I realized what happened when I began to sing. I did. I'm sure some would think this made me proud, but that is not what I felt either on that occasion or others when I was aware of this phenomenon. I could help other people express themselves. My voice could carry them along and allow them to worship as they would desire to worship. I delighted in being able to help a group in this way. Now when my own congregation falters on a new song, I feel as though I am letting them down. I want to help. It is in my heart to help, but my vocal chords no longer cooperate.
Recently I had the experience of being at a concert with brass instruments. Brass instruments are not quiet...they are overpowering. The audience was invited to sing along on some of the familiar pieces. It was actually wonderful not to be able to hear the sound of my own voice because of the blaring brass. I did not know if I was singing well or quavering or if no sound was coming out at all. Perhaps I was only mouthing the words, but my eyes filled with tears as I let the music carry me along. I pictured myself standing on the sidelines in heaven as a procession passed by. Jesus Himself was the focus of the procession and my voice or my silence melding into the triumphant sound.
I don't have any reason to expect to die soon, and I would not do anything to hasten it, but I do look forward to the day when the expression of my soul will fly out of me again.
I lost my singing voice about 10 years ago. By that I mean that my voice has become so unreliable that I have no idea what will come out when I open my mouth in an attempt to sing. I might be able to sing a few lines almost as well as decades ago, but then the sound may deteriorate into a shaky old lady warble, or no sound at all.
I don't know how to explain the sense of loss this creates. There used to be a connection between what I knew in my mind and felt in my heart and my vocal chords, so that the expressions of my soul flew out of my mouth and filled up a room even without amplification. The connection is broken. While it is true that a bit over 10 years ago, an experience crushed something at my very core, it is also true that age and a degenerative condition inherited in my family are probably the major contributors to this loss. Whatever the cause, I now stand in church wishing I could lift my voice, but unable to do so.
When my daughters were teenagers, one Sunday we were traveling in another state and visited a church we had never been in before. We were a few minutes late and the service had already begun. The congregation was attempting to sing, but no strong voice led them. The singing was tentative and spiritless. I knew the song and began to sing before I picked up the hymn book. An immediate change occurred. I could feel the impact my voice was having on the group. People began to sing out confidently following my lead. After the service, one of my daughters asked me if I realized what happened when I began to sing. I did. I'm sure some would think this made me proud, but that is not what I felt either on that occasion or others when I was aware of this phenomenon. I could help other people express themselves. My voice could carry them along and allow them to worship as they would desire to worship. I delighted in being able to help a group in this way. Now when my own congregation falters on a new song, I feel as though I am letting them down. I want to help. It is in my heart to help, but my vocal chords no longer cooperate.
Recently I had the experience of being at a concert with brass instruments. Brass instruments are not quiet...they are overpowering. The audience was invited to sing along on some of the familiar pieces. It was actually wonderful not to be able to hear the sound of my own voice because of the blaring brass. I did not know if I was singing well or quavering or if no sound was coming out at all. Perhaps I was only mouthing the words, but my eyes filled with tears as I let the music carry me along. I pictured myself standing on the sidelines in heaven as a procession passed by. Jesus Himself was the focus of the procession and my voice or my silence melding into the triumphant sound.
I don't have any reason to expect to die soon, and I would not do anything to hasten it, but I do look forward to the day when the expression of my soul will fly out of me again.
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Who was Sheerah?
I have read through the Bible several times. Sometimes I have skipped over the genealogies rationalizing that they are long lists of nearly unpronounceable names of obscure people, and they are irrelevant to doctrine or my life.
Recently I read the list of Ephraim's descendants in I Chronicles 7:24: His daughter was Sheerah, who built Lower and Upper Beth Horon as well as Uzzen Sheerah.
Many times biblical genealogies only include male descendants. Only occasionally are the names of wives included. But, here is a daughter who is not only mentioned, but who is credited with building three communities.
Who was Sheerah? She lived thousands of years ago in a middle eastern land where women were supposedly thought of as property. How did she rise above the accepted role for her gender?
Exactly what does it mean that she built these three communities? She must have been assertive and resourceful, a person of intelligence and organizational skills who was both knowledgeable and wise. Did she offend people...especially men...in the process of exercising her gifts?
I like strong women. I have been accused of being a strong woman. I have good friends who are strong women. I would have liked to have known Sheerah. It is probably lucky for my daughters that I didn't happen on this fragment of a story before they were born. One of them might have ended up named....
SHEERAH!
Recently I read the list of Ephraim's descendants in I Chronicles 7:24: His daughter was Sheerah, who built Lower and Upper Beth Horon as well as Uzzen Sheerah.
Many times biblical genealogies only include male descendants. Only occasionally are the names of wives included. But, here is a daughter who is not only mentioned, but who is credited with building three communities.
Who was Sheerah? She lived thousands of years ago in a middle eastern land where women were supposedly thought of as property. How did she rise above the accepted role for her gender?
Exactly what does it mean that she built these three communities? She must have been assertive and resourceful, a person of intelligence and organizational skills who was both knowledgeable and wise. Did she offend people...especially men...in the process of exercising her gifts?
I like strong women. I have been accused of being a strong woman. I have good friends who are strong women. I would have liked to have known Sheerah. It is probably lucky for my daughters that I didn't happen on this fragment of a story before they were born. One of them might have ended up named....
SHEERAH!
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